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05 November 2010 @ 03:44 pm
379 The Very First  

So I've been back in college the past few days, hence explaining my mini absence from blogging. Also, temporary hiatus from my TV meme until I get my next week break :D 

This week has got me into feeling a lot of mixed emotions and two of my very "firsts" event in my life.  

My first time doing something so crazy and exhilarating and also overcoming my slight fear of heights. So Tuesday outing with my half of my classmates was definitely enjoyable and exciting! We went for this SkyTrek Adventure which involves Flying Fox and other exhilarating activites, it was quite tiring but definitely a great experience! We were basically 17 metres up high and there was this crazy tall ladder which we had to climb, SO TIRING. And I hate ladders, haha. Thanks to Shuey for being the driver of the day and giving us a lift in your car :D

My first time failing a paper. On the very same day, I also found out that I failed one of my mock papers. Call it bad luck or something, but one of my lecturers coincidentally met us before our Tuesday outing and told me about it. Talk about being a mood ruiner or party pooper! I haven't seen my mock paper in actuality, but assuming what my lecturer said is true, then I've seriously failed my first paper ever. I'm wasn't sure how to feel, but it felt so upsetting. In any consolation, I could say that I've predicted to do bad in that paper, but to actually fail, it was like reality slapping me in the face. The fact that 50% of my class failed that paper too doesn't make things any better.

  To hold back such emotions on Tuesday before our outing, it was tough. I didn't want to ruin everyone's mood but at the same time, I needed to let out my frustration. So I called my mom and talked to her, thankfully it made me feel much better :) And luckily, half of the day I could keep my mind off it until I came back to the hostel. I wouldn't stop beating myself about how I failed and it was so mentally depressing, lol. Eventually, I told myself that I need to get over it and move on with life. So by Wednesday, I started feeling better and decided to move on pass the matter until I get back my paper in 2 weeks time :) And I'm thankful for the friends I have in college because they keep my mind off the depressing stuffs :D 
i'm feeling: boredbored
Shi Ern: Misc - *sends hugs*shi_ern on November 5th, 2010 02:01 pm (UTC)
I'm sorry about the mock paper. I don't think I've ever failed a paper before but I know it's depressing if/when it happens. :/ I'm glad you're feeling better already. *hugs*
*~Kristen*~: Stock - Keyboardaries11 on November 5th, 2010 03:58 pm (UTC)
I'm sorry to hear about your paper. :( That must have been so disappointing. I never "failed" anything, but I got my share of D's on papers and tests, and it's just as upsetting. If half the class failed, too, though, then I think that might say something about the teacher. I hope there's something you can do to still pass the class. *hugs*